day 57: a.k.a. PCP monday

So here's the thing: if you do your "day 6" workout (day 7 being PCP weekend day i.e. jumprope only) first thing in the morning, and then don't do the next week's day 1 workout until the evening, it feels like an ETERNITY since you last worked out. the body is probably more rested, but it takes longer to get going, and for some reason, guilt creeps in?!?! whats that all about? i felt like i had skipped a workout, even though i hadn't! pffffff. need to sort out my guilt issues.

how is this for bonkers: i don't really like telling people I'm doing PCP, because i don't want them to feel bad about themselves. isnt that insane?!?! i can see the madness but cant change it. i have been like this pretty much all my life. maybe its middle child syndrome, maybe its having divorced parents, maybe its the church of scotland upbringing sprinkled with a little bit of catholicism. whatever it is, it is ridiculous.

im a born worrier. i often think up things to worry about just as im trying to fall asleep. apparently it's a control issue. anyway, these thoughts just pop in and out of my head throughout the day, so thought id share with you all, you lucky lucky people.

new pics up. i had my own personal photographer this week, how extravagant! it beats me trying to balance my camera on the shelf, set the timer and then not look constipated/miserable when the shot is taken. I HATE having my pic taken, but jose had me in stitches while he was taking them; he used to train bodybuilders and was explaining to me what patrick was talking about with the ab flex thing?!?!? im still lost, couldnt do it. or more likely, i just dont have any abs to flex. truth hurts.

thought id share my dinner with you all: the simplicity gets me everytime. i LOVE it.

right my little chickens, hope you are all tickety-boo and can everyone please STOP GETTING SICK. i cant worry about ALL of you at the same time.