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slowly getting over my obsession. i was becoming so fixated on day 90, thinking that all my achievements/work/results had to be completed by then. it probably stems from my competitive nature, controlling habits and well you know, general vanity?! also, the fact that the big W is next week, it is probably adding to the pressure slightly? i.e the overwhelming feeling that as of next week/day 90, my life is over. kidding! i had forgotten that life DOES and WILL go on after PCP. and it will be a better life! an energetic, clean, more focused life.
i find it strange that PCP has made me able to look more objectively at myself and life like this. who knew exercise and clean food could affect the brain so much. i feel like some sneaky zen stuff has been thrown in with the diet and workouts :) . and i LIKE IT.
random observations:
1) yesterday i changed diet slightly. i had wholemeal pasta for lunch. and for protein in the evening i had half of a beeoooootiful argentinian steak. it was delish. but one of those two things, which i havent really been eating while on PCP, bloated me up like a balloon. rock solid. very weird. dodging them both from now on.
2) i just want to say a big massive thank you to the PCP gods for having allowed me milk in the morning throughout PCP. i guess not everyone has this as part of their diet, but as a coffee addict who loves a milky coffee in the morning, i would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart. the one bit of previous life i got to keep....... (i then hit the espressos later in the day, BOOM)
3) ankle still playing up. i swam yesterday instead of jumping (which is so dull and takes forever FYI). not sure what to do for jumping today. it doesnt hurt specifically when i jump, but any side movements or rotations on my ankle are giving me issues, so maybe non-impact is better for now? hmmmmm.
4) bit upset that this has runied my plans for the week of tearing it up on PCP, but instead going to focus on rest and stretching. 10 hour sleep last night, 'ave that!
5) not had my indulgence yet. basically, cos i feel like i "indulged" quite enough when i was back in the UK. hmmmm, thinking of halving it to 500 cals so i can still enjoy something and dazzle you all with my report on it ho ho ho. would be a nice weekend to do it, last weekend with the boyf living in sin as an unmarried couple. tee hee.
6) i need new music! my tunes are boring me! stuck in workout musical rut.
thats all i got. pishing down outside, sooooooo lovely to have rain in Madrid. the air is fresh. getting ready for a new season......
Yes, it's interesting how the focus on 90 days becomes a lot broader as you reach the end of the 90 days. Again, I cannot believe you took on this project while getting ready for your wedding -- brave and amazing girl! You're going to be the buffest bride ever. Hope it's a wonderful day.
ReplyDeleteAnd just like the fact that the wedding is just one day, but you have the rest of your life to be married, the PCP is just 90 days but you have the rest of your life to be healthy.
you sound balanced and at peace, real ZEN, congrats for next week, post a pic, you should be amazing
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the pending nuptials Miss uber-HAWT bride-to-be! Gaining objectivity re:how you look at yourself is HUGE! we're all too quick to judge ourselves. if we could show the empathy we show to others (speaking only for pcpers) to ourselves, we'd be all set. sounds like you've got a nice healthy physical/mental mindset for these next phases of life, being a Mrs. and post-pcp. :P
ReplyDeleteSneaky zen stuff???? NEVER!!!
ReplyDeleteholy cowmoly - only a week 'til your wedding!! zamazing - can't wait to see pics of you and jose all dolled up for the occasion. hey, wouldn't it be cool if team badass could somehow be there in person? i'd like to see will dance the funky chicken. haley'd give you some awesome words of wisdom and ilan would "take care" of any wedding crashers in between sets of 50 pull-ups out on the gazebo. the bachelors in attendance would be both scared and turned on by grace's "guns". and i'd be the one getting all sappy and crying as you walk down the aisle. all the makings of a perfect PCP wedding!! ah, well - you know we're all there in spirit.
ReplyDeleteSarah, that would be awesome!!!
ReplyDeleteI know that for me, having come from a background of dance, and swimming, and rowing,way back when, where I spent lots of time in spandex and lots of time worrying about my weight and whether I would be ok for the weigh in or would be too heavy for this or that, the objectivity that I've gotten from this project is probably more valuable than anything else, even more valuable than my new and improved tastebuds that only like good for you food. For the first time I can really look at myself and see what's going on right now, instead of filtering everything through so many layers of expectations and memories.
It's crazy because I know so many women who have similar background that struggle with their bodies and often times with the aftermath of injuries that happened a long time ago, and they just feel like this is how it always will be. But you and I have seen how huge of a change it can make.